Day 4 - The Friends

So I guess I mixed up some days..

SO, in total we were gone for 14 days.
2 days of traveling there....
2 days preparing
5 days in the woods,
3 days chilling and reflecting.
3 days traveling back,

I think that's it.
So, I am in day 4 now.
The falling out of bed part was this day, not the other day. Just as the looking for cardboard.
But that doesn't make any difference.

During our time at the paradise house, we talked a lot.
I talked with Sam, and Kyle. We talked about our expectations. About how the camping will be, how we felt about everything. I told Kyle i was a bit scared. I didn't know if I was ready for this, if I was good enough for this, stong enough. He also told his fears, and troulbles, and that was good. That Van we drove in all the time, has been such an important thing in the whole trip! It was a super old Van. It was a miracle it made it back to Minneapolis. IN that Van I've had so many conversations, laughters, dreams, memories. I can see the change in it. First day, unknown people, last day, dear friends. And all in that same car.

I can't describe how the friendships were. I mean, only that part of the trip would have been totally worth it. Have you ever been dumpeb in a car with 7 unknown people, traveling to an unknown adventure?? That is an ultimate survivalthing! I know I am pretty good in making contact, in getting to know people, but still. In the four first day of the trip, I felt so at home by them, I felt so accepted, that I didn't want any other people to be there but them. They all were perfectly in the planning. They all gave me something special I learned about. They all have so much I can see myself growing into, and changing to that. It is just amazing. Although they are so far away now, at this moment, I feel so connected with them, knowing they experienced the same as I did.

In the days of preparing, Peter talked a lot. He gave so much information! He talked about what we could expect, and what we wanted to do. The more I knew, the more fear I had. Maybe it was because I did not know anything of it, but I just thought it would not be anything I could do. That thought by itself amde me scared too, because I am not very insecure normally. It made me fragile. I think that was the biggest adventure. seeing how fragile I was those days, how easily I cried those days.

Sorry, this has not been my best post, but I just don't know what to tell more.
Lydia